Mr. On again, off again.

My ex- boyfriend called me last night on some straight bull-sh_t! I’ve known him for the last 7 years of my life and we talked for 5 of those years with a relationship in there as well. I couldn’t stand him at first, but he eventually got me to like him back and when I did, I liked him so much I knew I would utter the words “I Love You” one day. That day never came. Why? Because I don’t loves these Hoes!! =)  J/k but seriously, it was something that stopped me from loving him. Let me explain.


We met through my cousin, who at the time was talking to his cousin.  I was in college, and he was on the block, so I wasn’t really paying him any attention. I would often refer to him as my “trick at college.” He sent me money while I was away. It wasn’t anything to him, and I needed it, so I took it. When I would come home in the summer, that’s who I messed with...Nothing sexual... But we did boyfriend/girlfriend stuff minus the sex. I wasn’t sexual attracted to him, but I did dig him as a friend.  Eventually I started developing feelings and he always had them, so the next thing I know, I’m his girlfriend.


Nothing really changed once I got the title, except the caking. I’m not a “caker” so I would be so annoyed by all the time he wanted to spend together. After a couple of months of trying to be in a relationship, we said we would wait until we both were ready.  We dropped the title, but we remained real close. I eventually had sex with him and it was cool. He wasn’t my best, but he could get the job done.  I’ve always been the no strings attached chick, but I didn’t want to share him. We eventually stopped talking after we got into a really bad argument. We didn’t talk for 4months.



The next time we talked was the weekend of my 21st day. He told me he was going to Miami, the same time I was going.  We ended up on the same flight and I was with my 3 best friends and he was with his “girlfriend”.  My feelings were CRUSHED! I never showed them tho! I’m great at saving a face, and I wasn’t going to show how hurt I was. When we came back home, he brought me a great bday gift, but that was it.  Somehow over the next year and half, we ended up having sex a couple times. I felt bad for his girlfriend, but he was mine first.  Somehow during these sex-apades, he still had feelings and decided to express them to my cousin, which made me end the situation.



Fast forward a year later (November 2010) I misdialed him accidentally. I mean he was my boyfriend/bff/thug for 7yrs, who forgets the number? Anyway, once I realized I misdialed, I hung up. Next thing I know, his girlfriend is calling my phone talking reckless. My first mind was to go f_ck him and that bitch up but the mature woman in me decided to go to the club instead. Lol get some drinks in me and forget about it.  He calls me w/his brother in the background trying to pled his case. I wasn’t going for it and told him we were done. We weren’t cool, nothing. That was the last time I talked to him and then he calls last night and left me 2 voicemails (2:22 and 3:41) and I just laughed. Now I’m sitting at my desk, drinking my Starbucks thinking. What does it want? Should I cuss him and change my #? Or should I just leave it alone completely. WWYD?