I had a long conversation with one of my male best-friends about my fear of commitment; well lack there of. Its beginning to be a serious problem. It's not that I'm necessarily afraid to get hurt, but I just run from all signs endearment. Its like: "Oh you like me?" Okay, time to stop answering my phone and responding to text messages, tweets, instant messages, knocks on my door..etc.
Even if I half way like you and we engage ourselves in a sexual relationship, I can become disconnected and distracted. I'm not one to stroke male egos and MANY of you guys think your "manhood" is better than it actually is. For some reason after sex (if it's not mind blowing) I'm no longer interested, especially if you can't hold up to your sexual obligation. The connection fades away and I can careless about your being. Its not like I'm looking for Mister Marcus to do me in, but once you have great sex mediocre sex can't be tolerated. I honestly can't tell you why I feel this way. My dad raised me and has always been present in my life, so I'm not trying to feel a void. I'm not necessarily running around screwing every dude I see, but its like once I have sex with them I'm on to the next.
So instead of making dumb ass resolutions that I'm sure by spring I'll forget about, I will work on committing. Wish me luck.