I'm not knocking those with children but I don't have any and frankly I don't see myself having any kids anytime soon. Honestly, I am spoiled and require lots of attention and I hate sharing. I need to be someones top priority not their last. But Ryan is actually a great dad. He coaches his sons baseball team, takes him to museums and has dad/son nights. All these things are great, but he started rescheduling and canceling more dates then I could count. He told me a couple of stories about how he never had his father in his life and wanted to be the dad he never had. He also shared some of the problems he used to have with his sons mother and they were finally at a point of understanding. I definitely can respect a man for taking care of his children, hell we watch enough Maury to know how many deadbeats there are lingering in our streets. As fantastic of a dad he is, his lack of time for me was obvious. So I made an attempt to
Celtics (my favorite team) game with him in March. I easily wanted to scream "YES RYAN" but reality set in. I don't want to get my hopes up and then he cancels on me again, so I told him I would get back with him on the offer. I'm really confused on what I should do. Yes, were friends but we both like each other. Apart of me tells me to run away before I get my feelings hurt, but something is keeping me near. I really don't know what to do at this point. I guess only time can tell.