To Love

Dear Love,
I feel like i'm in a war between my heart and pride. I love to be with you , yet I refuse to hurt inside. Yeah you MIGHT care, but some things are based upon lie. If it wasn't I wouldnt feel this empty inside. I'm afraid to let you in because of the pain thats sure to come. At this rate I'll NEVER find the one. To afraid of tears, from the karma that sure find me from previous years. Maybe its all just lust. Because I seem to always put too much effort in "us" Love can you even hear me? You've ignored me all these years. I worthy of some attention by now. I've taken a personal time out to do soul searching to find out me. Now im straight lonely. Just wondering if you bailed out on me. I just hope you can still find me.