I felt my grandmothers presence around me this morning. When i woke up i could smell her scent. And felt a chill. I just smiled and said I love you. I was thinking of her yesterday. She died when I was 13. But she played a big roll in my life. Her death hurt me so much. I blamed myself for years. I don't want to get in the story I'll start crying while writing and i don't have time. i just put eyeliner on.
But when she first died i used to feel spirits. I remember i was about to go to sleep one night and it felt like someone was pushing my body down. I couldn't scream. I couldn't speak. I started crying. And immediately started praying and then i got free from whatever it was. I jumped up and was breathing hard. I sat up for like 20 minutes before attempting to go to sleep. Then it happened again. I started praying and it went away. I got up and put on a gospel cd and was perfectly fine. Everytime i tell people the story they all look at me like I'm nuts. But i was talking to my psychology teacher about it in high school and she said it could of been a spirit.
But like i said. I smelled her perfume. I could feel her near me. It was comforting. I miss her alot.
4 comments:
glad you're done blaming yourself for loosing your grandmother.
i've heard that before about the spirits...my ex told me something like that...interesting
yeah the spirit stuff is crazy.
when my ex boyfriend died.
i blamed myself too. i wasn't too far from him the night he died and i believed by some sort of miracle i could have saved him.
there are moments when its completely silent...i feel him standing next to me.
i feel his presence and its sooo strong...
[unbelievable.]
i miss him.
i'm glad someone else understands.
Im so sorry about your loss. I do believe that it could be spirits that you felt. Keep smiling, your grandma is watching you from God's House.
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