MUSIC IS MY THERAPY

Troubled little angel
Inconsistent... flying blind most of the time
Drama queen
Preening and untanglin'
Feathers in her wings
Captured by her dreams
Desperately she sings
Needy little baby
Open up your heart
Don't you be afraid to feel
Needy little baby
Hidin' deep inside
Don't you know your love can heal
Troubled little angel
Inconsistent
Flying blind most of the time
Don't know who to be [yeah]
Always rearranging the wreckage of her life
Ever holding tight to the hope that she'll be free
Needy little baby
Open up your eyes
Don't you be afraid to feel
Needy little baby
Hidin' deep inside
Don't you know your love can heal
I'm talking to you angel
Angel Deep inside of me
I'm talking to you angel
Angel One day you'll be free

chaka khan- angel lyrics..
This song gives me hope and lets me know its okays to be vunerable, cry and need someone to talk to.

my life is like a puzzle of 1000 pieces and 90 of them are missing.
i dont know if im going back to school or not because no one will be a damn co-signer.
im not asking for money.. help.. anything. just a sign your name on the - - - - dotted line.
X________ (thats it)
but everyone has more excuses then a blind man on crack.
if i have to stay in indianapolis i may commit suicide. (okay that was deep) maybe not suicide but a part of me will definitely die. i hate being here so much. all i wanna do is cry about the situation but im way to strong to even break down.
i have sent so much money to school so far.. and to know its going to waste. better yet.. everyone had something to say when i came home to transfer and decided to sit out a semester. i heard every story possible. from slaves not being educated, to dr. martin luther kings dream and why all the honorable leaders died, went to jail and fought for ppl like me to go to school and just throw it down the drain.. i heard stories about being poor and broke.. living pay check to pay check (them not realizing i was currently trying to get the hell out of dodge to go to school)
now NO ONE.. wants to help me. i feel hopesless and im 2.5 seconds away from giving up and saying fuck it. im trying to be strong but even the strongest have weak points.

pray for me.